Human interactions, to me, are exhausting. I think I put a little more into it than normal humans do. My brain races: what to say next, what does this person mean, what does this person think of me, what is this person all about, how do I avoid insulting this person, what is the best possible thing I could say to this person, is this person following me, does this person think I'm an idiot...blah blah blah goes my brains.
Combine the above with the fact that I am currently working in the hardest job I have ever had. It is the hardest thing I've ever done of any kind. When I leave that place, I am exhausted.
Maintaining a 'normal' social life under any circumstances is exhausting. Rush home. Shower up. Race back out. Meet whomever. Stay out late. Get up early. Go to work....
The scheduling and scheduling conflicts are exhausting. Somebody will say, Hey, you want to hang out tomorrow? I say yes, and then I'll remember, Oh no! I already told that other person I'd hang out with them! Ah! And I agonize over it.
I need more stamina, I guess. I need to build up more stamina...get off my butt and get out.
Hello Al_One,
ReplyDeleteI used to worry a great deal what others thought of me, but I'm learning to just look at these thoughts when they enter my mind, and become the watcher is all I do, and by doing so these thoughts disappear.
I'm not at all perfect in anything I say or do, so if I offend someone I'll apologize then let it go at that.
I try my best to be honest in showing love and compassion to all beings, and that's all I can do.
If some people don't like whom I am or criticize my beliefs all I can do is feel sorrow for them, for perhaps they don't share the same happiness I feel.
I just try to live within each moment I'm in without thinking what others may think of me, therefore what some people think of me, loses its control over me.
Thank you so much for stopping by my blog like you did!
If I don't follow these thoughts and get hooked up on them, I can stay in the present moment more easily. I try not to worry what others think too too much, but I get hung up there. When I manage to get in empty mode (the good empty), I can avoid even that. I wish I could carry these equilibrium moments forward with me...but I guess even that is a sort of clinging. Best to just be mindful and be present in this second...
ReplyDeleteI'm glad to meet you!